Do you ever wish life had a fast forward button? I sure do. Sometimes i wish i could just find an amazing guy, get married, buy a house, and start my life. So many of my peers are doing that so why not me?
In 2008, I met a very attractive boy at a local debate tournament. Our only communication was when I told him that he looked like "Clark Kent from Smallville." Yeah, embarrassing... But from that we became friends; distant friends, but friends none-the-less. We would talk occasionally online, and always make plans to hang out... which never happened. When he returned from a mission in October 2010, I vowed we would be better friends and ACTUALLY hang out, well... because he was hot :) . And he seemed absolutely perfect for me. In January 2011, we began talking frequently and soon after started dating. Things moved very quickly for us, and come March, I thought I was in love with him and would marry this man. But after a week with absolutely no contact with him, I realized I was mistaken. Everything had moved so quickly that I hadn't had time to really think about it all.
Maybe some people can meet someone and marry them shortly after and stay together forever. But I, however, need time, and I need to create a life for myself, before I go and share it with another human being. I need to get my degree and start my career and be financially and emotionally stable. I have grown up immensely in one year's time and I am continuing to change and create myself. Now this may change. I may meet someone that can help me gain all of these things. But for now, I need to focus on Me.
Until Next Time.
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