We Accept the Love We Think We Deserve

It's been a hard couple weeks.

Sometimes I find myself wondering if i'm doing things right. I wonder if i'm studying the right things, if i'm participating in the right activities, attending the right church, or dating the right guys. I sometimes remember situations and ask myself if I did the right thing, or if I handled the situation in the right way. If I would have done one thing differently, in multiple different experiences, my life would be completely different than it is now.

Sometimes I try to imagine how life would be if I was engaged or married.

Sometimes I try to imagine how life would be if I was still living in my hometown.

I go through times when it is really hard to see the good and amazing things that are happening around me. But although things are rough right now, they are also really amazing! I will graduate in just 3 more semesters. I may or may not apply and attend Grad School. I am getting real in-the-classroom experiences. I have a wonderful roommate and best friend. And I have a plethora of friends who surround me, and whom are willing to take time out of their days to pull me up from the deep. I truly have a blessed life. Sometimes it is just hard to remember that.

I will continue to march forward, with my goals staring me straight in the face, and I will do so with confidence, courage, and strength.

Until Next Time.